Showing posts with label struggle. Show all posts
Showing posts with label struggle. Show all posts

Monday, March 22, 2010

Goodbye Democracy, Hello Socialism

Good Morning, to my fellow residents of the "New" United Socialistic States of America. For those of you who went to bed before the news broke....the Democrats of our nation slammed through the National Health Care Bill. Many would be supporters are shouting and dancing in celebration at such a monumental victory. Thinking that this will HELP those less fortunate in our country who cannot afford health care, and you must never have known someone or been without health care to boo such a wonderful plan.



I thought St. Paddy's day was last Wednesday not today, quick check the calendar because the malarkey and baloney is flowing faster than the green beer was! I was once one of the "poor" who didn't have a lick of healthcare to save my soul. Even then with a plan like this I would have gladly told the government what they could use the paper they had so copiously used to spread their propaganda on for, toilet tissue anyone! This pile of garbage is just that, and it's going to create one hell of a stinking mess for all of us the longer we leave it sit around. Let me show you some general 'RED FLAGS.' And I can pretty much bet my blog won't cover all of them.


1. First and foremost this 'bill' wasn't required to gain the requisite Supermajority of votes required by our wonderful Constitution that was drafted and served us fairly well for over 250 years. Instead they call it a health care reform and manage to pass it with a 220-211 vote with not one single Republican voting yes and 34 Democrats taking no part in their parties little train wreck. Okay there is voting party lines and then there is the reality that the Dems couldn't convince 1 single solitary Republican that this was a good plan. Something there should scream....this is way more than party politics. And of course you have the brilliant Politian's such as my very own Representative from District 9 here in Washington State, Mr. Adam Smith who states to us his constituents, "it's a flawed and broken plan but it's a plan." Yeah I can't believe I voted for you, I won't be in the next election and if you run unopposed...... hell I'll run myself just to give people someone who will actually LISTEN to them and not have their vote purchased. You do not deserve your seat and I hope someone else out there steps up and kicks you out of it for the next election because if you are not going to help fix this nation then you are just part of the problem so move over.


2. Healthcare had to be piggybacked onto Federal Grant Reform, yeah so you couldn't make this stand up on its own. So you paired it with something that desperately needed to be reformed, since it's been in the stone age for decades.


3. You want to help those that currently don't have health insurance be able to attain quality affordable healthcare. Then why will you be fining anyone who doesn't have healthcare? You logic is a little flawed there. They are too poor to afford healthcare so now let's make it illegal to NOT have it. Yeah that's really cool, again this is where I would tell you to stick your plan.


4. We have over 11 million illegal immigrants known to be living in the US, who are not contributing to our tax base of revenue. Now Congress and Mr. President will you be scooping them up and sending them back to the countries they snuck in here from, or will we be paying out more tax dollars to care for them as well? Or is this plan strictly for LEGAL immigrants and then well they get out of paying those fines and they continue to suck at our economy don't they.


So other than making it so pre-existing conditions are guaranteed to be covered, which is about the only good thing I can find in your HR 4872. What exactly have you accomplished with this supposed great victory for change in America. The changes I see coming scare this blogger to thinking about what other country might just be better to live in when it all blows up here. I see the freedoms that made this country something amazing and a place that all Americans could take pride in, believe in, fight for and die for; quickly sliding down a slippery slope straight into socialism. Democracy the very foundation of this great nation is being eroded and our founders are probably trying to figure out how to come back to kick us out for screwing this place up so bad. I imagine if I were to go sit at any National Cemetery or the tomb of the Unknown Soldier, I would hear the tears of our fallen soldiers as they weep having given their lives to defend Democracy and Freedom only to see it dying. President Obama get a special tomb ready because I and millions of other Americans would like to mourn the death of Democracy.


I am not a Democrat or a Republican. I refuse to vote in my states Primary because I will not vote party lines or sign either Party's Oath. I am an American, I owe my allegiance to NO party, just my country, my fellow citizens, my friends, and my family. I will continue to vote based on the issues and beliefs on individual issues, I will vote for the person who can best do the job not the initial of the party they represent. I will vote for PEOPLE who want to make America strong, beautiful and vibrant once more. I will not vote for you if you are part of the problem. President Obama you spoke with such passion but you fail to execute on so many levels. I for one do NOT want your brand of change. I want an America where the American Dream still lives, "the pursuit of life, liberty, and happiness." No one said they would just GIVE it to me......I always knew I would have to WORK for it. And finally some quotes from people smarter than I...........


I find that the harder I work, the more luck I seem to have.-- Thomas Jefferson


“Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.” - -Martin Luther King Jr.


Of all tyrannies, a tyranny exercised for the good of its victims may be the most oppressive. It may be better to live under robber barons than under omnipotent moral busybodies. The robber baron's cruelty may sometimes sleep, his cupidity may at some point be satiated; but those who torment us for our own good will torment us without end, for they do so with the approval of their own conscience. --C. S. LEWIS


We have learned to say that the good must be extended to all of society before it can be held secure by any one person or any one class. But we have not yet learned to add to that statement, that unless all [people] and all classes contribute to a good, we cannot even be sure that it is worth having. --JANE ADDAMS


~Mindy~

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Next time make a better plan!!!!

So right now I am losing my mind. I know, I know you're all laughing and saying, "Mindy it was never there to begin with, so how could you lose it?" Well haha, ya'll need to come up with some new material.



Today was it, my big day to quit smoking. I was nervous when I woke up so I went and did some shopping for my trip to Vegas this weekend. Yes I am a shopaholic, we can work on that addiction at a later date, much later.....maybe never.....we shall see. Not making any promises, that I definitely can't keep. Okay...okay one thing at a time people. Now back to the Brand Spankin NEW NON-Smokin Mindy!!!!


I went to my appointment, stood outside smoking my last cigarette(s), yes it took 2. I was shaking like a leaf so I called my husband, one of my best friends, and emailed another very good friend with a few tears rolling down my cheek asking how the heck I could actually do this. I even posted the fact that I was scared to death as my Facebook status......support poured in. I finally put out that final cigarette and put one foot in front of the other until I was checking in. Officially final cigarette was 3-10-10 at 2:13pm!


Turns out that today's session was mainly prep for tomorrow. Oh Crap.....shoulda waited till tomorrow, nope gonna stick to my plan. So after talking to my Hypnotist and doing some prep work I feel confident that she is going to help me meet my goals. I felt comfortable and at ease in her presence, and I look forward to the work we do tomorrow!


Now funny thing is that the cravings really are not there, I mean I do get that twinge every now and then but she is right they go away within 3 minutes. That really isn't the big deal. What is killing me is this little voice in me that keeps taunting me!


Come on you know you want a cigarette. Just one more. It will help with the headache your getting.....stuff like that. Then there is the times I catch myself just robotically flowing into my routine!! Pushing away my computer and starting to get up to head out on my back deck to have a smoke just taking a break from surfing the net. Pulling my jacket on, slipping a lighter in the pocket, making sure to slip on shoes before grabbing my cell to head upstairs to have dinner with my Hubby. Wait don't need my jacket, lighter or shoes because I don't have to go outside I don't smoke anymore. Heck I could run around naked if I wanted to (sorry my sweet husband we have kids, neighbors, and well yeah no) because I don't have to be ready to get up to walk outside to light up.


So as hard as I am finding tonight I still believe that this is going to work and that I am doing what is best for me. I can do this and I have a great support system behind me.


Thank you all for the support and well wishes you have sent my way.


Love,


~Mindy

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Saying GOODBYE to one of my oldest Friends.........

So first off I am sorry, I know it's been a long time since I have blogged. I have neglected this poor blog for so long, guess I am happy it's still here haha. Frankly I don't even have an excuse for not doing my blog. It's not like work or anything else was getting in my way. And anyone whose known me well they will tell you it's rare for me to be at a loss for words.



So here is a quick health update. I have been diagnosed with ADHD, (something that doesn't seem to shock those around me but took me by surprise, why am I always the last to know everything!) and put on a medication that surprise, surprise brought my brain back home! Super cool, it also has brought down my daily pain just a bit more and given me back a bit of energy to boot. Then there is the fact that my doctor has been very concerned with my extremely high pulse and blood pressure, so I have been on BP meds that I haven't responded to so they did a Kidney study and found out my right one is having a bit of an issue. Seems the artery that leads into the kidney is smaller than it should be, something I may have been born with so I get to add another specialist to my list in April. Yay me. Long explanation made short, the blood isn't getting into the kidney fast enough because of the small artery, so it could be/probably is the reason for my out of control Blood pressure. This can be fixed by surgery we'll figure that out after meeting the specialist. Other than that the Fibro is what it is and I continue to overdo it because well I am a dork. Can't seem to help myself!!!


Okay so now on to the big news, what this Blog is all about today. As of 2:30pm tomorrow I plan to obtain the goal of being a brand new non-smoker! Yes that is right you heard me I am getting rid of those nasty little cigarettes that some of ya'll have been yelling at me about for years. I started smoking when I was 15 years old. My smoking habit has been like my longest friend ever, well almost except for a few girls who recently found me on Facebook again! The ones who started smoking with me haha.


It's time, time to say goodbye to an unhealthy habit. 16 years is a long time to smoke, and to smoke almost a pack a day. Right now when the doctors listen to my lungs or do Xrays they are shocked that I am a smoker because the look and sound great still, I want to keep it that way. My children, sweet and adorable Colby and Brynna have started to pretend to smoke like Mommy. Yikes, definitely not something I want for them. The cost keeps rising and rising and rising. Plus it's freaking hard work to smoke. I can't smoke indoors anywhere anymore, gotta haul my butt outside, and then when I do get out there I get the snotties who glare at me for polluting their precious air. So I get all cranky and defensive wanting to defend my "rights" so there goes the relaxing calming effect I was looking for from that smoke in the first place. Plus with everything else that is out of MY control with my health this one thing I can control. I can say NO and make the healthier change, and make a little bit of a difference in my health. This won't get rid of the other things going haywire with me, it won't make me unbroken, or fix me I know that but even this small change can have greater impacts over the next 5-50 years.


I am going to accomplish this goal of becoming a Non-Smoker with the help of the Positive Changes Hypnosis Center.(http://www.positivechanges.com/) They have a really good success rate and I have even talked with people who have succeeded with their help. As I go through this I plan to blog about it each day and let you know how it goes, how it works, and let you know if I am successful.


They asked me to name 5 reasons I want to quit smoking and here they are:


1. This is in my Control it's my CHOICE to make for a healthier me.


2. My Children. For too many reasons to list!


3. The Cost, there are more important/fun things our family can do with the savings.


4. The inconvenient time and effort it takes to smoke.


5. For my Papa George.


I will admit I am not only apprehensive about my first hypnosis session tomorrow (I really am you would think they were going to stick me in a tank of spiders as nervous as I am!), but the thing that give me great hope is that I am excited to quit smoking. I went to the gas station today and bought my last pack of cigarettes, even announced to the clerk "this is my very last pack ever, I am quitting tomorrow." He asked me for how long and I replied with a great big smile, "Forever." He wished me good luck and said good for me. And the two people behind me in line actually gave me a little clap. I was beat red blushing a ripe red tommato! Then I heard the guy behind me who had just clapped ask for his cigarettes and then say "man I really need to quit too." Which made my smile get just that much bigger!


So I ask of you my friends, family, readers, and random person who happens to stumble across my ramblings to please keep me in your prayers that my heart and mind be wide open to the hypnosis so that I may succeed with this endeavor with God's help, your support and good vibes coming my way, and all the love I feel around me. (For those of you who don't pray or call your higher being God just to let you know that's awesome in my book. I am a come as you are, believe your beliefs, worship as you worship kind of girl. I do not judge by any means no matter what your beliefs on any topic are!!!)


Thank you all for taking the time to read my drivel and sorry for the hiatus. Please take this journey to becoming smoke free with me!


Love,


~Mindy

Monday, November 16, 2009

The birds.......

Have you ever watched birds in a wind storm? I did just now for about 20 minutes. I was spellbound. It was amazing to see this flock of about 30 or more tiny little birds trying to make some head way south in gusty winds. They kept trying over and over. They would fly with all their might and get blown back into a pine tree. I imagine they were griping with all their might just to hang on as the boughs whipped in the wind. After a minute or two they could no longer hang on and as a group, they would fly to the neighbor's lawn. In another few minutes they would take flight and get buffeted back onto the neighbor's rooftop. Another couple of minutes to rest and again as if of a single mind they took to the air against the wind. And back they were blown to the tree. This process was repeated over and over like clockwork with no variation until 4 big ugly crows decided to join the party.


The tiny birds started chittering at the crows as they landed in the tree, upsetting the delicate balance of some of the little birds. This sent all of the birds into the air with crows almost laughing as they managed to fly off to the south scattering the little birds. I watched and they quickly regrouped on the rooftop and began to battle the wind again. Right back to the pattern they had been in before. After a few more rounds one of the little birds made it as far as the next neighbor's rooftop, and he looked back for his friends who were all rebuffed by the wind onto the other rooftop. He held his perch and watched two cycles of the bird-wind battle before giving up his own triumph to return to his friends.

The birds continued on trying to gain some ground to the south, and unfortunately the wind was still winning when I finally came in the house. I don't know why but it made me smile to watch these tiny little birds fighting with all they had against a force of nature they probably had no chance against. It was an unbalanced match but these sweet tiny birds were not going to give up seemingly no matter how long it took.

As I sat there watching I began to think that I was witnessing a fluid picture of how I feel every day. That as weird as it sounds I felt like I was watching myself battle this disease. I don't understand exactly what I was thinking or feeling, other than I felt like I was meant somehow to see this. Who knows maybe God was sending me a message in those tiny little birds. Maybe I'll even figure out what that is one of these days, LOL. All I know is it was a beautiful sight and it made me smile, and for some reason touched my heart.